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12.26.2010

since i haven't blogged for quite sometime now, i'll be posting something for tonight. here are some songs which made me feel better and "in love" for a couple of days before i started my training...

TERRIFIED (Katharine McPhee ft. Zachary Levi)

Hmmm…

You by the way is the greatest guy

In the world for all you’re the ____ right

Finding me through the lonely

To the other side

You started to give my heart emotion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I’m at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burn in the dark

And I…am in love

And I…am terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

And this could be good

It’s already better than that

And nothing’s worst than knowing you’re holding back

I could be all that you needed if you let me try

You started to give my heart emotion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I’m at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burn in the dark

And I…am in love

And I…am terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only

I only said it coz I mean it ooh

I only mean it coz it’s true ooh

So don’t you doubt what I’ve been dreaming?

Coz it feels the earth and holds me close whenever I’m without you

You started to give my heart emotion

Every word feels like a shooting star

Watching the shadows burn in the dark

And I…am in love

And I…am terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

Life…life…in my only life

...

MS. BRIGHTSIDE

(Sabrina)

Papapapapararara oh-ooh

Papapapapararara…

I’m coming out of my cage

I’ve been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be damn

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this?

It was only a kiss

Now I’m falling asleep

When he’s calling a cab

While she’s having a smoke

And he’s taking a truck

Now they’re going to bed

When my stomach is sick

And it’s all in my head

But she’s touching his chest

Now he takes off her dress

Not letting me go…oh-oh woo-oh-oh-oh

Coz I just can’t look

It’s killing me in taking control

Jealousy

Turning sins into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it’s just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

Coz I am Ms. Brightside

[repeat]

I am Ms. Brightside

I never…I never…

...

Wonderwall – oasis

Today is gonna be the day that they’re gonna throw it back to you

By now you should’ve somehow realized what you’re gotta do

I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the weather’s on the street that the fire in your heart is out

I’m sure you’ve heard it all before but you never really had a doubt

I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don’t know how

Because maybe you’re gonna be the one that saves me

And after all you’re my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day but they’re never throw it back to you

By now you should’ve somehow realized what you’re not to do

I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads that lead you there are winding

And all the lights that light the way are blinding

There are many things that I need to say to you but I don’t know how

I said maybe you’re gonna be the one that saves me

And after all you’re my wonderwall

I said maybe you’re gonna be the one that saves me

And after all you’re my wonderwall

I said maybe you’re gonna be the one that saves me

Your’e gonna be the one that saves me

You’re gonna be the one that saves me

...

ONLY EXCEPTION

(Paramore)

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart

And I watched as he tried to re-listen to it

And my mama swore

That she would never let herself again

And that was the day that I promised

I’d never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling you are the only exception

You are the only exception

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul

That love never last

And we’ve got to find other ways to make it alone

And keep us straight-faced

And I’ve always lived like this

And keep in a comfortable distance

And up until now I have sworn to myself

That I’m content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But you are the only exception

You are the only exception

I’ve got to take before reality

But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here

I know you’re living in the morning when you wake up

When you wake some kind of groove it’s not a dream…oohwoohoh

You are the only exception

And I’m on my way to believing

Oh and I’m on my way to believing

...

note: i wasn't able to really listen properly and get the exact words of each song that's why there are still "blanks" or wrong words. haha. but what the heck, i just love these songs. ;)

Labels: dreams, inspiration, life, love, wala lang

+ yaNix + 12/26/2010 08:25:00 AM

12.02.2010

What is your profession?

If someone asks you about your profession what would you tell him/her? Probably you would say, “I am a lawyer”, “I am a doctor”, “I am an architect”, or “I am an engineer” that is if you don’t quite like your chosen field or you consider it lesser compared to these career mentioned above. But, what if you’re a teacher, would you proudly say, “I am a teacher!”?

If I was a teacher I would be very proud of it. Well, I wouldn’t shout to the world that I am a teacher but I would be very glad that I am a teacher. Why, because imparting knowledge onto others is the hardest thing to do and I think it’s the reason why teaching is told to be the noblest profession. And why would you not be proud of it, right?

Teaching is not really my passion. I don’t like teaching. I hate talking to a throng. I get nervous. I literally shake in front of a huge crowd. But, I admit that I envy teachers who are able to communicate and pass on their knowledge to their students. I envy them because they create an impact to their students’ lives. I envy them because of the admiration of the so many children who underwent on their trainings and assessments.

Until now I still look up to my teachers because all of them were able to touch my life. Though not all of them created good memories when I was their student, still they’re able to make a huge impact in my life. They made me realize so many things about myself which I didn’t know before. They made me know myself better. In short, they made me a better person.

That’s why in my next life, if He will give me another chance to live again, I would choose to be a teacher.

+ yaNix + 12/02/2010 08:01:00 AM

It all started with being a “referral”. It was plain help. It was as simple as telling something to a friend. And it went this far.

I am very thankful to a friend because without his help I wouldn’t be able to work, to feel this independence, to set my feet in this world. Indeed, I felt grateful and more blessed that I am now here already experiencing what it’s like to have a job.

I am not yet working. However, I am close to it. I’m still on training. And I badly need to pass all these trainings to finally be part of this company.

Finally, I am on my way to achieving my goals, my dreams, and finding the meaning of my life. Finally, I am here. Finally, I am tasting the first set of successes that I may reap.

p.s. this is supposed to be posted 3weeks ago. haha.

Labels: wala lang

+ yaNix + 12/02/2010 07:58:00 AM

Where have I placed my brain?

This past two weeks I have been on training with my fellow CVG trainees. We reviewed on grammar which covers the subject-verb agreement, verb tenses and when to use its plural and singular form; pronunciation; and a bit of the American culture.

In the beginning it was just fine. The trainer would ask us to pronounce some words, read paragraphs, give our opinions, and do fun activities which enhance our skills and refresh our minds. In short, the two weeks of training was all about enhancing our skills and teaching us about Basic English. It was total refreshment for all of us.

All throughout the week I never felt better. I mean I didn’t really succumb to it. Only I didn’t give my best. It’s as if I’m just there to just learn. I wasn’t able to apply my learning and I don’t understand why. Whenever I thought of doing something I end up messing everything up. And for that I absolutely hate myself.

I felt that I wasted hazel’s (our trainer) time. I kept on embarrassing myself to her. I know I understood her lessons but I wasn’t able to apply those. Why? Oh I’m such crap. Holy crap!

Ooh well it’s all done and that. I can’t return to the past and mend it. And I wouldn’t want to. I just don’t want to embarrass myself again. All I have to do is look forward to a new beginning and apply everything I’ve learned from hazel. I have to always do better. In short, magis.

Labels: dreams, sad, wala lang

+ yaNix + 12/02/2010 07:55:00 AM