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8.26.2010
FLIPPED
i sooo love this book. it made me love love. :)
p.s. i'm so sorry. i planned to really upload the video but since the internet wouldn't allow me i just copy the link instead. :(
this is only the trailer of flipped not the movie yet.
Labels: inspiration, love
+ yaNix + 8/26/2010 08:00:00 PM
8.24.2010
just because i look up to you that's why i'm telling you a bit of me. haha. (and taas ng tingin ko sa sarili o akala mo nmn kung sinong alta de sociedad. tsk3)
hmm, my problem is about love. it's not the typical love story you hear from people who have been loved by their so-called other half. this is a love story that is common but is often neglected. it's my love story with my parents.
9 years, 9 months, 4 weeks, and a day before my birth was my parents' wedding day. they were happy and all until such a time that my father become disloyal towards my mother. he had another woman or women so to speak.
for a time i blinded my senses with what i knew. i didn't mind it becasue i thought i didn't know it.
then high school came. that was the first time i told my story and my deepest heartache to someone - to my trusted friends. when i opened my problem to them i cried. and then i discovered hatred.
at first i thought it's just okay. i thought it would just vanish. but it didn't. the feeling burdened me up until in my college years.
in college, i've known people who suffer a quite similar problem with mine. however, theirs is worse than mine. i learned from them.
i've forgiven my father. i wrote him a letter narrating every single detail about how i knew it and how the loneliness in my heart grow into hatred. i told him everything. and i've forgiven him. i gripped the pain and succumbed to it. i cried. i cursed. but i caressed myself.
in life, i learned that you don't have to become someone else to know that you can do great things. even a simple act of forgiveness to someone who hurt you is enough to say that you are one great person. it's not easy to forgive. but hating is the hardest.
p.s. i'm loving my family now. the best-est way to survive is to learn, to love, and to live!
Labels: and i, angst, me, myself, realizations, REFLECTIONS
+ yaNix + 8/24/2010 07:41:00 PM
august 21, 2010.
as i went back home with my mama that day, i tried to reminisce my past experiences on riding my way home.
though, not all of my travels back home are as memorable as the recent journey i had, still those were worth remembering.
the first time i learned how to travel alone (by bus) was of mixed emotion. i was happy and at the same time nervous because of the thinking that the bus driver might not hear my voice. but gladly, i made it. however, there was even a time where i really asked my mama to accompany me on my way to malaybalay from valencia. and that was kind of funny and irritating because the conductor was a bit pesky. that was the first time i hated a bus conductor. :)
the worst travel i had was when i was in my sophomore year in college. i happen to seat beside an exhibitionist. he masturbated from kisolon to malaybalay and that was an hour or so of travel. and god, just imagine how i felt during that time. all i remember was that i almost had stiff-neck because i kept on looking through the window to disturb myself. honestly i felt harassed. :(
but, the happiest thing that happened was when one of my recent travel bounding for cagayan de oro, i encountered my long lost cousins. we saw each other again after almost 3 years of having no communication at all. we chatted through the bus' windows. oh well we were like using sign language and lip reading because we didn't really talk. haha but that was just one of the best.
but, the best-est moment during my travel to and fro the coziest home of mine is when i experienced two opposing weather. when you happen to be in a place or pass a place where on the other side it's raining while the other is having a sunny day. i love it. :)
Labels: happiness, realizations
+ yaNix + 8/24/2010 08:50:00 AM
8.14.2010
black. everything in black. suddenly there's light. luminous light that sparks. it blinds you. then you'll tell yourself. "i'm dying".
a lot of people especially those who have had near-death experiences would think that the light they saw is a vision telling them that they're gonna die now if not so soon. and after seeing the string of their life that binds their body and soul, they would suddenly change into someone who is very loving. they would start to value their life, every breath they give off.
on the other hand, there are just people who would do everything to die - to end their useless life. they don't want their existence anymore. so i dedicate this entry to them.
ways of dying:
- a person could die without eating for months, without drinking for weeks, and without breathing for even just a minute. however, i don't think that people would deprive themselves of food, water, and air. why? because they are too fond of eating, drinking, and in the innermost part of their brains they would want to breathe and continue breathing. they just sometimes have this facade of wanting to die to get people's attention.
and so, here are the stitches:
1. i hope you are too fat to plan to go on a diet. and in wanting to be sexy you would have illnesses instead of becoming healthy.
2. i pray that you live in a desert, in the sahara if that would please you. but i would be very generous on that part. i would make you like agua bendita.
you'll be a taong-tubig. and since there's scarcity of water, you'll end up draining yourself up. and tantadadaaaaaaaaaaaa you'll die in the whole process.
3. you'll not breathe. it's that simple.
see? it's that easy to die. you don't even have to slash your pulse or use a knot. some people are way too conceited that whenever they feel the world conspire against them, they would just decide to end their lives.
i pity those people. :(
Labels: death, depression, resolution
+ yaNix + 8/14/2010 11:52:00 PM
THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASSReal people - and good characters never see themselves as others do. - 1000 photographs...
sorry i forgot the book where i got this quote from. anyways, i agree on this saying or whatever this is all about because some people just don't get or understand their goodness. and i think it's because they don't think of themselves as someone who could change or make an impact on people. they care not on how they are viewed by people because their purpose is to do whatever it is they want to be doing. and they don't realized how much impact they have done on someone.
Labels: realizations, REFLECTIONS
+ yaNix + 8/14/2010 11:20:00 PM
got this on tumblr. reblog it on my tumblr. and post it here just coz it's beautiful.
if the rain will always be this great then i would always dance in the rain. :)
Labels: realizations, REFLECTIONS, wala lang
+ yaNix + 8/14/2010 11:11:00 PM
8.10.2010
i think of myself as someone who needs others' help. i don't want to be labeled as dependent but sometimes i just become one. but now i realized that i am not always dependent on other people. sometimes i have the power to make others feel better. and sometimes, out of nowhere, i just give wonderful advices. and today i made two good points.
whatever it is you're experiencing now is just a phase of life. so cheer up kim. in time, you'll find joy in whatever you will be doing. :)
we're all given chances but sometimes we just choose the other choice. but kim, all the choices we or you made means something. you may not know it now but soon you'll find the reason why. so why don't you just give it a try. instead of waiting, why not hope for the best? to be better and feel better. :)
(these advices are for kim, a classmate of mine who felt so down right now. i hope she'll be better. oh well, i know she'll be. :))
Labels: inspiration, realizations, wala lang
+ yaNix + 8/10/2010 01:03:00 AM
oh hello. i'm writing again because i just miss it so much. i mean, yeah, i have been writing and posting on my tumblr account. however, most of my posts there are reblogs. meaning, i'm reblogging or reposting others' works. it's not really robbery or plagiarism rather it's another way of helping artists/writers/photographers/etc. be known in the whole wide world. so for now i'm gonna write about what i don't like about tumblr.
1. though the account is mine sometimes it becomes like someone else' because of the reblog thingy
2. though i could choose not to reblog others' works still i feel the need to do so because it's just so beautiful
3. i feel that blogger is more intimate and more private
4. i just can't throw this blogger account out of my life
p.s. i'm still loving my tumblr no matter what :)
Labels: rant, wala lang
+ yaNix + 8/10/2010 12:48:00 AM
8.09.2010
Aquino’s regime begins
Half a million supporters flooded the Quirino Grandstand to witness President Aquino’s inaugural speech on the 30th of June 2010.
Not only were the ordinary people witnesses to the nation’s celebration but it was also joined by the various Filipino artists. Performances by Charice, Noel Cabangon, Regine Velasquez, Ogie Alcacid, Apo Hiking Society, and Gary Valenciano were applauded.
Pres. Aquino delivered his speech in tagalog. “Ang layunin ko sa buhay ay simple lang: maging tapat sa aking mga magulang at sa bayan bilang isang marangal na anak, mabait na kuya, at mabuting mamamayan (my goal in life is to be loyal to my parents and to the country to which I am serving for as a dignified son, good brother, and a good citizen.)” said Aquino.
His speech highlighted the needs on and for education; infrastructure specifically on transportation, tourism, businesses; health; and agriculture. He also revived the “emergency employment” of the late former President Cory Aquino to lessen the rate of unemployment.
He stressed out his and his party’s tagline kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap to remind the people that there is no way to goodness than through taking the right way. He ended his speech by saying: kayo ang boss ko! which can be translated into: the Filipino people are my bosses.
Sources:http://superbianca.blogspot.com/, http://www.gmanews.tv/eleksyon2010/nationalcount
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKpj6794mDg
Labels: articles, writing
+ yaNix + 8/09/2010 11:56:00 PM
things that keep me love this blog:
1. this is my first blog or social media that made me love writing more.
2. through this i realized the burning passion i have for writing.
3. this has become my friend when i have no one to talk to. this blog, though not directly, sympathized with me.
4. i can rant, shout, laugh, cry, and be all mad in here.
5. i am sure that all posts are mine and not by anybody else'.
6. i do not have to care whether or not someone is following me.
7. i am never shy to reveal my passion for writing and who i am as an individual.
8. i just love this blog. so, so, so much
and these made me changed my mind. i am fickle-minded and i will always be especially if it has something to do with this blog. i will never ever forget this. :)Labels: happy, HELLO AGAIN, realizations, REFLECTIONS
+ yaNix + 8/09/2010 05:29:00 AM
got this on tumblr. reblog it on my tumblr. and post it here just coz it's beautiful.