[ call.me.patience ]

[ D.I.A.N.E. ]

My life has been out in the open

since i started blogging.

However, you will never find the word "shame"

inside me.

No matter what people say

i will always be what i want to be.

No one can stop me from

voicing out my opinions.

I may change but nobody can change

the fact that i am a girl with millions of dreams.

These dreams are may be that hard to grasp

but there'll always be ways of tasting it.

[ The Memories ]

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9.14.2009

i couldn't think of any possible reason but last night i was just dumb and so numb. i don't like that. i hate my attitude. i was carrying this pokerface with me 'til our cheerdance practice was over. from the start of our practice i was there with all the smiles. but, when the almost end part came, i was nothing. i felt nothing but emptiness. i felt that my time was wasted. so wasted and devastated. but all of those thoughts weren't true. it was not my time that was wasted and offered to something which is nonsense. it was i, myself, who was wasted and devastated. i acted so immature. i acted as if i was the only one who was so tired and exhausted. and...i don't wanna be that anymore. i wanna change for the better. i wanna be who i am.

+ yaNix + 9/14/2009 07:58:00 PM